Today is the one year anniversary of my hyst. I don't feel up to writing much now, but I thought I'd write a little something:
I'm home and can finally let the tears fall. My box is done, my brother got me flowers, my Buddhist inspired alter thing is up, and Alex is by my side. It was a no win scenario. I'm not Kirk, I couldn't cheat. I am pain free, but unable to conceive. Tonight I am thinking of the children I will never bear; listening to the unsung lullabies; looking at my scar as a reminder of lost dreams...
*hugs* to you, strong lady.
ReplyDeleteYou cry as much as you need to. Today is filled with so many complex emotions for you.
((Hugs))
ReplyDeleteThinking of you!!
I love you Sonja! ((hugs))
J
Thinking of you.....
ReplyDeleteYay, I'm officially published! LOL
ReplyDeleteBig Hugs....this has been such an emotional year for us. I think about how far we've come and it gives me hope. I am just a few weeks short of my year hyst marker. Amazing how fast it went by. I am so proud of the progress you've made and you will continue to make.
You did such a wonderful job on your memory altar. As always, I'm here. ((hugs))