Aliens and Chickens

Well, today has definitely been better!

Mostly been battling a headache today. I'll take that over the facial pain.

Once again Erica, the sinus microwavable heat pack you sent me is AMAZING! If anyone's interested, here's where you can get your own: The Ferris Wheels.

Between the heat pack and a cold pack I've kept the pain tolerable. Still a little tough when I'm up and about walking but...well, I guess if I must sit I can game...

My brother told me today that it's good thing that I suffer from sinus problems and not high blood pressure because of the way I've gotten into this game. I got into my uber game mode
(very intense, forget to eat, don't bother me) (Matt refers to this as my "inner raging gaming bitch") and there are some very hard parts, and I...get a little frustrated. Ok, VERY frustrated. I rarely cuss in normal everyday life, but somehow gaming warrants cussing. So my brother walks downstairs and hears "I BLEW YOUR F*CKING HEAD OFF, WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT?!" then "YOU BASTARD! THAT WAS A CHEAP SHOT!" He then, while dying of laughter, suggests that we get rid of Dish Network because watching me game is entertainment enough.

This game has been a nice escape. Like I alluded to in my previous post, this sinus flare has threatened to drag me down into a depression: the pain, being stuck at home, missing out on things. I recognized the warning signs, so I made sure to do things that I enjoy, such as gaming, especially since usually I don't have much time for it. Instead of going "Man, I wish I could read but I can't cause my head hurts too much" I take that would be wasted energy and have fun killing aliens. I remember too, in my endo days, that when I would just sit and game or something similar, I would refer to it as "wasting time." I no longer view it that way. It's taking care of me time. Gaming is the same as a bubble bath or listening to Tom Petty or watching Harry Potter 3 and drooling over Lupin. And plus, when I'm sitting up to game, my sinuses drain better, lol.

I am kinda amazed on how long it took me to get back into the "patient" role. It took me a while to realize I need more sleep right now. That it's not a horrible sin to order pizza instead of cooking. That it's okay to ask my dad and brother for help. I am happy, it means that I have been doing great for so long that I'm out of practice.

Also too, gaming has helped keep my mind off "since I'm STILL having sinus problems, and we know they run in the family, should I even consider surrogacy?" I mean it's one thing knowing that since my endo was successfully excised and my hyst cured my adeno, but you're kinda stuck with your sinuses. Unless you're a chicken. They don't have sinus cavities. Maybe I should raise chickens.

That's all you do? Bird imitations?

From Hawkeye on M*A*S*H:

This guy owns a circus. He's out in the Big Top examining everything, when this scrawny little guy walks in.

He asks, "Are you the boss?".
The guy answers, "Yeah, why?"
Scrawny guy: "I want to join the circus. I got an act."
Boss: "Yeah, what do you do?"

So the scrawny guy walks over to the center pole and climbs all the way to the top. He gets to the top and he leaps off, flapping his arms all the time. And he flies all around. All around the center pole flapping his arms like crazy (and imagine Hawkeye flapping around). Loops through the trapeze swings. Then he flies to the top of the tent and does a dive bomb straight towards the ground and lands safely next to the boss.

The scrawny guy says to the boss, "So. What do you think?"
The boss looks at him and says, "Is that all you do? Bird imitations?"

I find that joke hilarious.

What was I talking about again?

Oh yeah. But yeah, so my brain has been trying to wander to the "what if I pass this on and should I even consider doing that?" or "If I'm going to keep having my life interrupted by sinus problems, should I even be a mom?" but I'm not going there. No point right now. I'll just flap my arms and do bird imitations instead.

Or sit and game, rest, and take care of myself.

And plot the downfall of an evil alien race and that bastard of a scientist dude who is somehow behind everything...