In my previous post, I talked about how my sinus problems are back. I've been stuck in the house since Tuesday and my head/face just aaaaaaaaaaches and pounds.
I'm scared. What if this takes forever to resolve itself? I read the weather this morning. More arctic air on the way.
I'm missing out on things again. Work. Boyfriend. Friends. Family will be in town this weekend.
And where am I? On the couch. In bed. Alex doesn't leave my side.
These meds suck. I feel sick taking them, but I have no other choices, I'm allergic to so many antibiotics. Last night was the last night of the steroid, but still 8 days left of the antibiotic.
I have never, ever taken for granted the good health that I've been fortunate to experience. Now I'm terrified of having to deal with these damn sinus problems chronically. Seeing everything I've worked so hard just slip away. Again.
I know that it's probably just because I was bombarded by colds and the frigid air, and the antibiotics will take time, and I see my doctor in a few weeks. We'll get a handle on things again.
It's really terrifying. The endo/adeno battle has traumatized me for life. I don't EVER want to go back to a point where I'm stuck in bed in daily pain, watching everyone else have fun and go about work and stuff. And it's weird too, cause when my head hurts really really bad, my ovaries have sympathy pain. Not like they're hurting on their own, but it's like a phantom "hey we used to hurt too" pain. It's like they're being rallied. I ignore them, but it just reinforces the endo flashbacks that I'm getting. I don't want to be stuck in the house and in bed like that again.
And then, of course, I'm oversensitive to EVERYTHING. Couple of people I used to work with a while ago have become pregnant (yay Facebook) and it's one of those things like "...and they get to be pregnant?" So that's not helping.
So when my face/head allows it, I play "Dead Space" and kill things.
Hi Sonia,
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear that your sinus problems are back again. I've had a cold recently and despite the 80% humidity here, it felt like the air was cold and dry and hurt the hell out of my sinuses. I can't even imagine what you're going thru! I'm not sure what your sinuses are like structurally after the surgery, but I wonder if acupuncture could help. My husband has sinus problems too and recently an acupuncturist stuck a needle in his face and he said that instantly his sinuses opened up and it was cleared completely. It was like magic! It's not permanent but might offer an alternative relief instead of drugs. Oh Poor thing! AFter all the trauma and pain in your life, I hope you find a solution to this other problem.
Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I'm creeping back slowly into blogoland after a long hiatus. I'm catching up with your blog. Heard about your new BF! Yay for you! :-)