Sleepless Tidbits

I'm up late and in pain. I got my brother to take me shopping tonight. We went to Target, Arby's (I treated him since he was dragging me around), and the grocery store. I was tearing up from the pain before we even got home. But the good news is that now I have food and Alex has new cardboard scratchers.

So here are some random thoughts/tidbits:

I felt bad for my brother during this semester because of his class load. Poor guy was so busy and overworked. But now, being home all the time, he doesn't have enough classes and/or homework. We're spending too much time together, and starting to annoy one another.

I'm currently reading Jodi Picoult's book "Handle with Care."

It was 31 degrees today. It's finally warming up! Except now, all the talk is about how much flooding we're going to get. Not a fan. Esp if we're forced to leave our place again.

Today I watched a show on Andrew Jackson. I really am not a fan of him. You know, the whole Trail of Tears thing? Yeah. But I learned that during the Battle of New Orleans, the British used barrels of sugar to help fortify their position. Except that when they were hit by cannon fire, the sugar went EVERYWHERE, including all over the British cannons. And the hot sugar made the cannons inoperable. I find this amusing for my dad works for a sugar company.

My brother Eli, in text/chatting conversations with me, starts out with "Are you dead yet?"

My brain is staring to delve into the realm of "do things happen for a reason?" More on this later, because I know it won't stop til I get it out in blog form.

Alex, the other day, not only turned off the light via light switch, but also managed to pull cords out of the power strip.

I realized the night I entered the dart tournament was one of the best nights of my life.

On Wednesday I can buy Tom Petty tickets. It might just be me and my brothers going.

I really need to organize my books. They're taking over the upper floor.

I'm feeling very overwhelmed by this pain flare. I'm trying to deal with it better than I usually do, which usually means me breaking down about something totally unrelated, it all comes out, and then that's that. I'm scared and angry and feeling guilty and sad and lost. I can't seem to get out of the "this is not supposed to be happening" mindset and until I do, my emotional and mental health is not going to be very stable. Part of is that I don't know what's causing it. Ok, most of it. I want to know what's going on, so then I can fix it. I mean there is a reason I keep duct tape on every level of the house: if something breaks, I fix it immediately. Or at least patch it up so my dad can totally fix it.

Seriously, I do have duct tape on every level of the house.

Oh, today while shopping, my bro said that he only had a few things to get. He ended up buying more than me.

Spring training games are about to start!

Well that's about it for now. I'm gonna go find some food at attempt to get some sleep again. Thanks for staying up with me!