**If this is your first time reading my blog, here's a summary: I'm Sonja, almost 26. I suffer from endometriosis (have had it since I was 17), I had a hysterectomy at 24 due to adenomyosis, and will be losing my left ovary on June 28th. No kids but my kitty girl.**
Okay, so the question is, how do me and my barren body rejoice in being a woman? Please read my previous blog post to get you caught up into how my little mind came up with this idea.
The first thought that came to me was getting a tattoo, something that symbolizes femininity. I'd put it on the inside of my left wrist. The question is what kind of a tat? A moon? Some kind of Celtic symbol like a Triple Goddess? Or something like this? Or the Triquetra? I have a kick ass tattoo artist, she does her own work, (she did my lotus)so if I bring her ideas she will work with me to get the PERFECT tat.
What else can I do, something maybe each month to not dread being a woman, but instead embrace it?
Something I can do regardless if this oopherectomy works or not. No matter what, I will be minus one uterus and one ovary.
What can I do to make myself feel good about still being a woman, even if I am in pain, even tho I do have scars? Something to mark being a woman without pads or tampons.
This I'm less sure about. What do I do? Do I put aside a day every month to bake something? Do I take an evening and pamper myself--bubble bath, new nail polish, stuff like that?
Do I host a dinner get together for me and some others?
I don't have (m)any female friends in the area that I could do a "red tent" type gathering with; girls to just hang out with.
To me, being a woman is to be caring, nurturing, compassionate, perhaps nagging, keeping things under control, look cute...so how do I put that into action once a month?
I need to take back my womanhood. My endo and hysterectomy and now my oopherectomy has stolen it from me for far too long.
Please feel free to leave comments or shoot me an email with any ideas or suggestions you may have. I need my sisters' help with this. I can't do this alone.
