The Mud and the Lotus

Alex's Bath Time

2012-02-10T15:04:00.003-06:00

Health Stuff Update

2012-02-08T16:58:00.000-06:00

Yeah I'm still here! I've been busy with physical therapy appointments and fibro flaring. Livin the dream. I am now doing three different physical therapies: my pelvic therapy, jaw physical therapy, and I started warm-water pool therapy today for my fibro. Pelvic therapy: It's going really well! She had me get an exercise ball to start some stretching/strengthening things at home. For the

Tabrez is Back!

2012-01-18T22:48:00.000-06:00

From WeHeartIt.com Tabrez is back! I picked up him up at the airport last night. I had the whole butterfly thing going, it was actually pretty funny. I ran up to T as he came out of the doors and I hugged him and didn't want to let go. We walked to the baggage claim area hand in hand. We were that obnoxious couple that was all kissy and huggy and lovey dovey. Til we realized his baggage

Fibro and Abdominal Pain Stuff

2012-01-15T22:21:00.000-06:00

I'm hoping my fibro flare is finally dissipating. Yesterday the abdominal pain was worse than the fibro, and lately that hasn't been the case. I had pelvic PT on Wednesday so the pain from that was expected to flare. Today I got about 14 hours of sleep, which in the past My pelvic PT has been going really well! I was told that it would take at least six months. I started in November, so

Tom Petty Tues: The Waiting

2012-01-10T22:54:00.000-06:00

Tabrez comes home in a week. Therefore, today's selection is "The Waiting" by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers.

Blogging vs Fibro

2012-01-05T20:13:00.000-06:00

I've been working on blog posts but my fibro-y fingers haven't been cooperating. Sunday or Monday I fell into a flare and still haven't gotten out of it. I have all sorts of things to write about: Leo's wake and funeral (which were beautiful), the books I've been reading, the New Year's goals I made for myself. T will be back in 12 days. Ugh I have a lot to do before he gets here! Okay

Thoughts on Death

2011-12-29T02:28:00.001-06:00

The closest I've ever been to facing my own mortality was in February when I had that reaction to Savella. The thought of my death has really never bothered me. I actually find comfort in the fact that someday my suffering will end. And I'm trying my best to make sure I don't foul up my karma so I don't end up worse than I am now. Without thinking, I wanted to survive that Savella disaster. I

Leo Passed Away

2011-12-28T13:59:00.000-06:00

From Amy: Leo John Hoepfner was called home early this morning to be with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He fought an incredible battle and is a true warrior. He was one of the best men I have ever had the privilege of knowing, and I was even more blessed to have been able to call him my best friend and husband. I don't know why God always takes the good ones so early, but I guess He

Stuff

2011-12-22T20:56:00.000-06:00

Yeah I've been a bad blogger. Having Tabrez gone (he made it to India safe and sound and is having a great time) has thrown me off (and Alex). Then the whole thing with Amy and Leo has been haunting me. I've also been busy hanging out with friends. And when I'm occupied with all that, I've been cleaning or sleeping. Anyway, I haven't forgotten about this blog. I still intend to detail my

Tom Petty Tues: Christmas All Over Again

2011-12-20T21:39:00.000-06:00

Update on Leo

2011-12-14T16:52:00.000-06:00

I received word the other day that Leo, originally given til Easter--maybe summer--now only has days to a couple weeks at most. They're not sure he's going to make it to Christmas. From Amy: "His liver has started to go into failure, and there absolutely nothing left to do. No more drugs or procedures. Since every body is different, it is very hard to pinpoint a timeline, but with his liver

Still Here!

2011-12-09T17:59:00.000-06:00

I apologize for not blogging for a while; I haven't been feeling the best so I have been sleeping. A lot. Then my boyfriend is leaving for India for a month on Sunday so when I have been awake we've been hanging out and getting him ready for his trip. I intend to catch up on my blogging next week!

Amy and Leo

2011-11-24T01:05:00.000-06:00

Remember I mentioned my high school bff Amy and her husband? Tabrez and I went to their benefit dinner and dance in late August. In case you don't remember or don't care to click the back link, Leo was diagnosed about a year ago with chondrosarcoma. Sarcoma's make up only 1% of all cancers; chondrosarcoma makes up about 1-2% of all the sarcomas, so it's very very rare. I found out Friday

Note to Self re: Upcoming Blogging

2011-11-21T18:01:00.000-06:00

This is just a note so I don't forget what I need to blog about, because I am way behind on blogging. Surviving the 3 year hysterectomy mark I don't understand why things happen/weekend from hell Pelvic physical therapy

3 Year Mark Approaching

2011-11-19T01:55:00.000-06:00

Sunday the 20th will mark my three year hysterectomy anniversary. The thought of it makes me very sad and heartbroken. I thought maybe the three year mark would be a little easier to deal with. My two year mark was easier than my first year. Via WeHeartIt.com I naturally expected that my third year would be a bit easier. Easier in the aspect of it not being all consuming; the pain is

Appointment Results

2011-11-12T21:38:00.000-06:00

I am sorry that this post is overdue. Tabrez and I got down to the Cities around 2 am Thursday morning. My appointment was scheduled for 9:30 am, and we had to wait til Tabrez was done with a school program before we went down. It snowed for most of the trip. I was in too much pain after the drive to sleep. I rested though, so that was something. We got up, showered, and nommed, and got to

Endo Appt Made

2011-11-02T22:10:00.000-05:00

I see my endo surgeon in the morning of the 10th. I really hope he has some answers/ideas for me. This needing percocet all the time sucks. I almost had to freak the fuck out this afternoon. After going to an appointment with Sara, I got home and was going to rest/relax/recover. I check the mail and I got a letter from the county social services office, saying that my health insurance has

Halloween 2011

2011-11-01T00:43:00.000-05:00

Tabrez carving his very first pumpkin! Nom nom nom! Isn't she the cutest little one ever? Me and my Jack o'Lantern! Tabrez and his Jack o'Lantern! Tabrez's Jack o'Lantern My Jack o'Lantern!

Infertility Is...

2011-10-26T20:25:00.000-05:00

Infertility is the embodiment of judgment. Infertility is self judgment. My body failed. My body was diseased. My body was in pain. I was the one who approved the hysterectomy. I’m the one who has been slowly gutted like a fish—my female organs being removed one at a time making me less than a woman. I’m the one who won’t give my parents grandchildren. I’m the one who won’t make my

Wordless Weds

2011-10-19T18:21:00.001-05:00

Eli and Me at a hockey game.

Fight vs Acceptance

2011-10-18T21:32:00.000-05:00

I increased the Danazol to two pills twice a day on Friday. We shall see how it goes. When I was talking with T the other night, I realized something. Throughout my whole endo battle, I was always fighting it. I always knew there were more treatments to try, new doctors to go to if the current treatment gamble didn't pay off. Now...not so much. This is it. I need to move from the "fight"

A Few Things

2011-10-14T16:58:00.000-05:00

First: Check out Keiko's post about the "Infertility Is" blog contest. Yes, I will be participating! Second: I've found a great app to track my endo pain on my Droid. "Manage My Pain." It's customizable so you can add what body parts/areas hurt, rank how your pain is on the 0-10 scale, pain descriptions, and you can print off reports. I bought the full version for $4. I highly recommend

Tom Petty Tuesday: George Harrison's Beware of Darkness

2011-10-11T22:55:00.000-05:00

I had a rough night last night. Let's just say I don't take news of a pregnancy well. Since I played the heck out of Tom Petty and the Heartbreaker's "Echo" last week I needed to listen to something else. Besides "Echo" my other melancholy/brooding music is the first disc of George Harrison's "All Thing Must Pass." (Petty and Harrison hung out a lot so he works for my Tom Petty Tuesday.)

Endo: Grieving and Acceptance

2011-10-10T20:42:00.000-05:00

So there I was, beating myself up for taking the return of endo so hard. Then I realized that I'm grieving. The five stages are denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. I don't know what I didn't realize it sooner; I've dealt with the grieving process so so so much in my endo battle. Oh well. After writing the last post, things began to become clearer to me. Your comments

Just Pretending

2011-10-07T00:15:00.000-05:00

The appointment on Friday really destroyed me. In the way back of my mind, I was afraid that endo was the cause of my pain, but I didn't allow myself to think about it. Therefore, I was ill-prepared for that crushing blow. The one where the doctor comes in, sits down, and you can just tell by his body language he has no idea what to do for you. I managed to make it out of the building

Tom Petty Tuesday: Room at the Top

2011-10-04T18:51:00.002-05:00

Whenever I need to brood, I put on Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers album "Echo." I've listened to it a few times since my appointment where I found out that my endo is the cause of my pain.

It's Back

2011-09-30T22:15:00.001-05:00

This will be a quick post since I'm writing it on my phone on my way home. I saw Dr W today, who is a colleague of Dr H. He did an exam, had an transvaginal ultrasound done, and everything was normal. So he believes the Endo is causing pain again. He increased my Danazol, hoping that the increase will provide the suppression I need. It was my worst fear--the fear that's kept me up the last

Wordless Wednesday: Snuggle Ball!

2011-09-28T20:14:00.001-05:00

Got an Appt

2011-09-28T19:47:00.000-05:00

I see a doctor who works with Dr. H on Friday afternoon. Via Google Images Somehow my message never got through or was lost or abducted by aliens, so I called AGAIN today wondering wtf was up, and I finally got to talk to their triage nurse, who was alarmed at my pain level and how much percocet I was having to take, and since my doctor has been gone and will be gone the rest of the week til

Owwww

2011-09-24T00:05:00.000-05:00

Last night was horrible. I got only about four hours of sleep because the pain was so bad. The lortab didn't do a thing. I considered the ER but figured that it'd be better if I just waited out til my PCP appt this morning. Tabrez took the morning off to take me to my appointment and be with me. I'm so glad he came. I saw the PA of my PCP today, and a student that was shadowing her. I gave

Wordless Weds

2011-09-21T21:45:00.002-05:00

My loves <3

My Staph Infection, Or, How Being Allergic to Antibiotics Sucks

2011-09-21T21:34:00.001-05:00

I got a call from Mr Hot Dr's office today, asking how I was doing because the antibiotic that I'm on isn't proven to work on the infection I have. I said I was sleeping a lot and felt worn out and just not right, so they told me to come back to see him. Eli came with me to the clinic. When I was called back, Mr Hot Dr showed me the culture report. I have staphyloccus aureus. (I remembered

Still Alive

2011-09-20T22:08:00.001-05:00

My staph infection is one that can be easily treated with antibiotics. I find out tmrw if the antibiotic I'm currently on is appropriate.

Staph

2011-09-18T19:46:00.000-05:00

I went to the walk-in clinic today because the pain skyrocketed on my left side. It's been around a two or a three, but during making breakfast it jumped to an eight. I was told to go back to the walk in if things got worse, so Tabrez took me in. While there I was told that the prelminary report on the culture they took Weds showed a staph infection. They won't know how bad til tomorrow. So

Wordless Wednesday: Snuggles

2011-09-14T15:15:00.002-05:00

Taken with my new phone.

Incision Update

2011-09-14T15:03:00.000-05:00

This recovery thing? It's been fun but I'm quite done with it now. kthxbai. So the infection/puss stuff had disappeared after the z-pack. Things were looking good til yesterday, when the bleeding/oozing out of the left and right sides picked up. So today I call my PCP and tell the triage nurse what was going on, and she sent me to the walk in clinic. There I saw Mr Hot Doctor. He looked

Mall Story

2011-09-09T23:41:00.000-05:00

Today I took the old body out for a spin. My incision is all healed except for the sides. The sides are oozing blood, but I didn't see any puss today! I got my hair cut early this afternoon. Since growing out my hair from how short it was, it's been getting longer in different places, while other places have been trying to catch up. I realized yesterday that the back of my hair was becoming

Scenes from a Picnic

2011-09-08T13:40:00.000-05:00

Things Are Good

2011-09-06T21:21:00.000-05:00

Why hello there. Things have been going alright here. Sinuses are better, but my incision has developed a minor infection so I'm back on antibiotics. Sunday night my incision started oozing puss, and so Tabrez took me to the walk-in clinic on Monday. It's not too serious since I caught it early, so hopefully it'll clear up soon. The pain has worsened since the puss appeared to about a five.

Post-Op Appointment

2011-08-31T23:25:00.001-05:00

Yesterday my dad and I went back down to the Cities for my post-op appointment. I'm three weeks post-op today (Weds). Dr. H was very pleased with how I was doing. I'm healing great. My internal stitches haven't begun to dissolve yet, but they will in a week or two. He extended my no-sex spell from a total of six weeks to EIGHT weeks *insert tantrum here.* Otherwise I'm clear to take bubble

A Night Out

2011-08-29T13:11:00.000-05:00

I had the most wonderful night Saturday night! Back story: One of my best friend's from high school is Amy. She's married to Leo and they have three children. Leo was diagnosed with chondrosarcoma. Sarcoma's make up only 1% of all cancers; chondrosarcoma makes up about 1-2% of all the sarcomas, so it's very very rare. He's being treated at the Mayo Clinic in Rochester. They live in western

Same and Different

2011-08-26T20:16:00.000-05:00

Some things are the same. I still have breasts. I still have wide hips. In bed I can still get aroused and wet and orgasm. When I'm dressed I look like every other mid-twenties girl out there. I'm still cute. Some things are different. The horrible pain I had on my left side is gone. I lost my cervix. I only have my right ovary and fallopian tube left. I have an eight inch scar. Even

Stupid Sinuses

2011-08-24T22:25:00.000-05:00

I went to the doctor today. I have a sinus infection. Surprised? So I got meds for it and hopefully it will go away soon! I hope to compose some substantial blog posts soon; I would tonight but I went grocery shopping tonight and I hurt and am going to go to bed. It was nice to get out and T did most of the work. He's so awesome. So stay tuned!

Update on Recovery

2011-08-21T22:38:00.000-05:00

I've been doing alright. Healing is going pretty well. My incision did open a little bit but with the assistance of Barb I have it all closed up again. Just some blood, no puss, the incision isn't feeling hot. I've had this happen before. I've been off narcotic pain meds for two days now! I'm down to ibuprofen. Which is also helping for this stupid cold/flu that I caught. Bit of a fever

Wordless Weds: Surgery Pics

2011-08-17T18:08:00.000-05:00

Me, T, and Emu the Monkey the day before surgery Emu The Monkey supervised in the OR First time sitting in a chair post-op Finally home! Alex was so happy T was back too!

Back Home

2011-08-16T14:37:00.000-05:00

We made it back home Sunday afternoon. The second part of the ride home was much better than the first. After a couple hours on the drive home the pain got too bad so we stopped for the night. We had a nice hotel room and we caught up on some sleep and watched "Phineas and Ferb" til we fell asleep for the night. Alex was sooo happy we were home. I brushed her right away and she just started

Post Surgery Update

2011-08-12T11:46:00.000-05:00

The long awaited post-laparotomy post! Surgery went just as expected. The Cervix of Doom is now removed. Stage II Endo was excised from the following spots: rectum, cul-de-sac, right ovary, back of cervix, and the top and corners of the vagina. There was just normal scar tissue found. The right ovary only had a tiny bit of endo on it so he was able to clean it off and save it. Here's what

Litterbox Time!

2011-08-10T00:20:00.000-05:00

Well, it's the night before surgery. I'm hungry, tired, and crabby. And in the hotel room bathroom. Or litterbox, as I call it. 12 hours after drinking the magnesium citrate it finally kicked in. Aloe toilet paper and wet wipes FTW!! And I just might be in here laughing at epic farts. We need to be at the hospital at 7:30 am central time, and surgery will be at 9:30 and be for a

Green Light

2011-08-08T22:00:00.000-05:00

Surgery on Weds got the official green light. T and I met with Dr H this afternoon. Dr H made sure I was alive (heart and lung listens) and then proceeded to do the pelvic exam. He felt endo stuff on my cervix and IT HURT. So the Cervix of Doom is definitely going. Then the plan is to excise the endo that he finds. He shouldn't have to remove my right ovary unless it's beyond saving. I

My Pharmacy

2011-08-06T00:30:00.000-05:00

My pharmacist had a dream with me in it last night. We went to some kind of carnival. I go to Walgreens waaaaay too much.

Surgery Stuff

2011-08-03T20:43:00.000-05:00

Surgery for my endo is scheduled for Wednesday, August 10, 2011. A week from today. T and I will be headed down to Edina, MN on Monday for my pre-op appointment with Dr H that afternoon, since I haven't seen him since February. Then I'll have the surgery on Weds, then will be out that weekend. Unless I really do have an alien growing inside me and it comes out during surgery and kills the

Wordless Weds: At the Lake

2011-08-03T16:10:00.000-05:00

Fibro/endo flare=not so good Sonja Dart! Caught in mid-yawn. Eli and Me Eli and his gf Stef Making Rice Crispy Bars My little girl Watching the water Mommy! I want to go on the jet-ski!

A Couple of Blogs

2011-07-31T19:30:00.000-05:00

Blogs to Check Out: My endo/hyst friend Sara has a new blog! Go check it out at Attraversiam sopra My endo friend Nichole recently got engaged! Go say yay and congrats!

Uncomfortable

2011-07-30T23:42:00.000-05:00

This past Tuesday, T and I went to my parents to watch the pets while they went on a short vacation. Four cats, plus Alex, a dog, and a bird. The cats don't like Dart, Eli's cat, who is staying there, so it was basically Dart and Alex inside. Alex does not particularly play well with others from the animal kingdom. Then Tuesday night, we had a decent thunderstorm. All the animals came

Back from the Zoo

2011-07-28T22:17:00.000-05:00

I have been a bad blogger again. I have a good excuse this time: I had to go home to my parents' with T and Alex to keep an eye on the zoo. Four cats (their three, plus Eli's Dart), the dog, and the bird. So yeah, a total of five cats. I got back to my place tonight and am too tired for a proper post, but one is coming. With pictures of Alex, don't worry.

Endo, Me, & T Makes a Crowded Bed

2011-07-23T00:17:00.000-05:00

(This post might be TMI for some; it does mention sex. Hot steamy sex.) Sometimes, you just get caught up in the moment. "I haven't been on top for a while." Via Google Images. It's like this but with a way hotter Indian guy and I'd be curled up in a ball grimacing. As I laid in bed afterwards, I realized WHY SONJA DOES NOT BELONG ON TOP! Why it had been a while since I had been. Endo.

Heat and Flare

2011-07-20T21:14:00.000-05:00

We're in the midst of a horrible heat wave with insane humidity. Apparently my fibro is not a fan. Since Saturday, I've been pretty much useless. I'm hurting as bad as I did when I first experienced the wonder that is fibromyalgia. We all remember how well that went. Thankfully I've been coping with this horrible flare better than the first flare. The dark thoughts aren't there. I've been

A Nightmare

2011-07-20T20:32:00.000-05:00

I had trouble sleeping last night, since I slept pretty much all day, and when I slept during the evening, it was on the couch. That made my fibro-y ribs not happy, especially since I had an Alex cat sleeping on my chest. So I tossed and turned til I finally got up, and I messed around on the interwebz and my netbook before finally going back to bed tired. As I slept, I had a nightmare. In

Birthday Recap

2011-07-17T13:22:00.000-05:00

Sorry this update has taken forever--I had to recover from my birthday weekend, and then now with this heat and humidity my fibro is NOT happy. First of all, it's been great having Sara and Dan in town. It's been a blast and I'm so happy they're here! My birthday celebration started on Thursday, July 7th. T, Sara, Dan, Bill, and I went to a strip club. It was my first visit to one. They

Missing, But Not Gone

2011-07-12T20:19:00.000-05:00

I am sorry I have been missing lately; spent the last few days celebrating and/or recovering from my birthday. Then I messed up my netbook and I'm currently trying to get it back to where I need it to be. So pics and blog posts will be coming!

Happy Birthday to Me!

2011-07-08T12:48:00.001-05:00

I'm 27 today! I'm having fun celebrating and look forward to giving a recap of the festivities!

This and That

2011-07-06T14:23:00.000-05:00

I'm still here! Sorry I haven't checked in for a while; my endo/hyster sister Sara and her husband moved 1.6 miles away so we've been hanging out and getting them settled. Otherwise been hanging out with the boyfriend. He's been busy lately and I miss him. Even if he kills me in Scrabble. English is his second language, I taught him how to play Scrabble, and I haven't won a game against hm

"Star Trek" is Now on Netflix!

2011-07-01T13:33:00.000-05:00

"Star Trek," "Star Trek: The Next Generation," "Star Trek: Voyager," and "Star Trek: Enterprise" (even tho the latter does not exist in my world) are now available streaming on Netflix! Finally!! For more info, click here. Time to celebrate!! Via Google Images

Wordless Weds: He Feels Pretty

2011-06-29T21:03:00.000-05:00

My bro Eli fell asleep Monday in the living room. I painted his nails (Zoya Danii) while T took the pics.

Blogs/Resources Updated

2011-06-24T23:47:00.000-05:00

I updated the Blogs/Links/Resources thru the letter "N" tonight. I should have the rest updated soon. Take a look and if your blog isn't listed, or if I should describe it differently, please comment on this post letting me know what's up. Thank you, The Management

Breakdown

2011-06-23T13:26:00.000-05:00

It happened. The night before last I fell apart on the boyfriend about the whole infertility/health problem mess that can sometimes be me. He survived. Here's what happened: We were cuddling in bed, and we started talking about this, that, and the next thing. I had mentioned that one of my endo/hyster friends that lives in Australia said that if he and I get married we need to honeymoon in

Father's Day Weekend

2011-06-21T16:27:00.000-05:00

Alex, T, and I went to the lake over Father's Day weekend. It was beautiful outside. Admiral Alex, nommer of the high grasses. On the lookout for possible noms. She loves watering cans. Just hanging out on a hot summer's day. Me The hot boyfriend On the pontoon

ICLW!

2011-06-21T14:37:00.000-05:00

First of all, sorry for kind of disappearing for a bit. If it's been rainy I've been pretty much in bed (fibro flares), and if it's been nice out I've been at the lake. But it's ICLW time again! I haven't done one of these for a while so I thought it was time! Welcome! Take off your shoes, help yourself to cookies, and don't mind the disaster slight mess. I'm Sonja. My little bio blurb

Wordless Weds: Chilling with Alex

2011-06-08T17:41:00.000-05:00

The Dandelion Has It

2011-06-07T21:55:00.001-05:00

I've been thinking the last few days on why I've been enjoying gardening so much this year. Growing up I didn't like plants/flowers at all. My mom would plant them where we'd play baseball in the yard and then yell at us if we destroyed them while playing. I remember tripping over a metal flower support thing which made me miss catching a pop up, and it gave me a scar for a couple years on my

Tom Petty Tuesday: Wildflowers

2011-06-07T12:38:00.000-05:00

I love "Wildflowers." It's a beautiful song about love, being free and happy. And flowers are cool.

The New Guy

2011-06-06T22:52:00.000-05:00

Okay girls, grab the popcorn, pop, nail file boards, and nail polish, it's girl talk time! So you guys aren't letting me off the hook without spilling about the new guy. His name is Tabrez, he's 25 (so a year younger than me). He's from India and going to school at one of the local universities for his masters in industrial engineering. Smart, sexy, funny. Very smart, very sexy, and very

Sassy Girl Bath & Body

2011-06-06T21:58:00.000-05:00

Do you like soaps and smelling nice and pretty? Well then head on over to Sassy Girl Bath and Body on Etsy! This shop is run by my great friend and endo/hyster sister Sara! She just got it up and running and still adding to her listings, so check back often! Now go forth and shop!

Neuro Med Called In

2011-06-03T17:20:00.000-05:00

Yesterday I called neurology and asked what was going on, why haven't I heard anything? A nurse called me back with my lab results: all normal, but my sedimentation rate is a bit high at 30 indicating some inflammation but "are not usually of clinical significance." I was then asked if I would like to go ahead with the indomethacin to see if that would help the headache/facial pain, and I said

Wordless Weds: Alex at the Lake

2011-06-01T18:27:00.000-05:00

The lake is very high this year so my parents put sandbags to reinforce the trees. Alex used them to get to the tall grass to nom.

Memorial Day Weekend Recap

2011-05-31T22:21:00.000-05:00

No word from my doctor yet. Granted it was Memorial Day weekend so maybe things got delayed but if I don't hear anything by early afternoon tomorrow (Weds) I'm going to call. This facial pain is now going into my jaw. Which I kind of need. You know, to eat. Or talk. Over the weekend Alex and I went home to visit my parents. We had fun, when I wasn't sleeping or curled up in bed. Alex and

Neuro Appt

2011-05-26T17:46:00.000-05:00

I had my neurology appointment this morning. At 8:00 am. Freakin early and I didn't get my 12 hours of sleep that I needed, which meant a couple hour nap after I got home. Anyway. He did a full neurology exam, and then said that everything was fine. He was very thorough, and had a nice cologne on. So his plan about my facial pain: He ordered blood work to be done. He wants to rule

Wordless Weds: My Little Piece of Heaven

2011-05-25T15:06:00.001-05:00

My backyard(my tree is losing its flowers so they're all over the ground): Now the front: The flower I put on the front step. The plant I planted in the front flower bed.

Tom Petty Tuesday: Deliver Me

2011-05-24T13:44:00.000-05:00

"Sometimes I wonder if this is worth the trouble Sometimes I wonder if this is worth the fight I never have made my mind up about it I've just decided to let it all ride Let it all ride" "Deliver Me" from the album "Long After Dark" by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers

Neurology Appt Made

2011-05-23T17:01:00.001-05:00

I canceled my surgery that was scheduled for Weds. There is no way I want to go through a laparotomy recovery with this kind of facial/head pain. Nothing makes the pain better except one thing, and that's not exactly a legal means of pain relief. My PCP wouldn't prescribe anything because she didn't know what was causing my pain, but she would set up an appt with a neurology. I was told that

Douche Equis

2011-05-19T20:46:00.000-05:00

This is too brilliant not to share:

Wordless Weds: Pretty Girls!

2011-05-18T19:44:00.000-05:00

My hair is getting long! Mommy got a new flower for me to nom. Perfect size for a paw.

Tom Petty Tuesday: Don't Pull Me Over

2011-05-17T16:17:00.000-05:00

Let's just say that a lot of this song is fitting of late, considering how much pain I've been in. Draw your own conclusions ;-) Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers "Don't Pull Me Over" from their album Mojo.

What to Do?

2011-05-15T15:53:00.000-05:00

I'm still here. I apologizing for not updating for a while. I've been dealing with some major face pain that until today I've gotten no relief at all. To start my tale: Last week I had a dentist appointment. Everything was fine. Nothing from my teeth was causing my facial pain. Tuesday I had my long awaited appointment with my ENT. I told him where I was still having pain on my face: the

Tom Petty Tuesday: Don't Do Me Like That

2011-05-10T16:07:00.000-05:00

My body has not been happy lately. Now it looks like I'm facing a migraine problem that's responsible for the pain in my face that I had attributed to my sinuses, which my ENT declared totally clear. So to my body I beg: Don't Do Me Like That!

A Cat Mom's Mother's Day

2011-05-08T23:29:00.000-05:00

Well, Mother's Day didn't go as planned. It was rainy. I like to brush Alex outside, where I also like to paint my toenails, so we decided to do the "spa" thing another day when it's nice out. That and I had gotten a tad sunburned yesterday and I didn't want to risk aggravating it with face peels. However, the day did have its pleasant surprises. I woke up with Alex's paw in my hand as she

"Silent Sorority" Review

2011-05-07T17:02:00.000-05:00

Last night I read "Silent Sorority" by Pamela Mahoney Tsigdinos. This is a book written by a woman who has endo, who went through infertility treatments with her husband that looked so promising but ultimately failed, and then they chose to be child-free afterward. I really enjoyed this book. Although I never even had the chance to TTC, a lot of what she wrote spoke to me. "Some could

Hey Hey from Outside

2011-05-06T19:06:00.000-05:00

First of all, if you're wondering why I haven't been commenting or even reading your blogs lately, it's because they disappeared on my Blogger dashboard reader. I'm still following you, but it's not showing the newer posts. Or for that matter, any posts. Apparently other people have been having this problem so hopefully it'll be resolved soon. Because this girl ain't happy that her Playstation

Wordless Weds: In or Out?

2011-05-04T19:50:00.000-05:00

Oh hai mom! I can't decide if I want to be inside or out so this is ok, right?

Doing Pretty Well

2011-05-02T20:23:00.000-05:00

Things are a lot better emotionally. About mid last week I started noticing my mood improving, and when I hit the one week mark being back on Lexapro, I knew it was a definite improvement. I also met with my psych that day (Fri) and we're going to keep it at 10mg and see how things go. It's a lot easier dealing with the horrible pain when my mood is better; my coping techniques actually have

Giveaway Results!

2011-04-30T21:35:00.000-05:00

The winner of the bracelet is... Sparking Phoenix! You'll have to take my word for it; I hurt too badly tonight to move to the desktop to get a screenshot. Sparking Phoenix: I tweeted at you, so I hope you see it, otherwise get in contact with me in the next couple days. Thank you for all the entries and the love of Alex!!

Wordless Weds: In the Backyard with Alex

2011-04-27T18:27:00.000-05:00

This and That, Sinuses and Moods

2011-04-27T18:23:00.000-05:00

I'm still here, don't worry. Monday I got a new surgery date: May 25th. Provided my sinuses are fine. Monday I also got a call from my ENT's office saying that to start doing the sinus rinses again (even tho I already did), otherwise continue with the z-packs until I see him May 10th. So off to the pharmacy to pick up refills. Yeah that trip was kind of overwhelming, so I came home,

When It Comes Down To It, I Am Not Selfish

2011-04-24T00:00:00.001-05:00

Myth: People who are child-free are selfish. I had a hysterectomy in 2008 because my uterus was diseased with adenomyosis. I was 24. I remember the nights leading up to making my decision to having the hysterectomy, and the nights leading up to the actual surgery: One night I was alone in my room bawling because my Mirena IUD had failed to control the severe, debilitating pain from my uterus

Glimpse into Madness

2011-04-23T23:33:00.001-05:00

Today...well, the new Doctor Who season began, Tom Hudson and the Braves played against Tim Lincecum and the Giants (haven't watched it yet tho). My parents were in town picking up my mom's new car (new grey Subaru Outback, kinda jealous, but I do love my Legacy) and asked if I wanted to meet them for lunch, but I was still in bed (around 11) and had a bad headache. I eventually got up, and was

Brace Yourself for a Giveaway!

2011-04-23T15:15:00.001-05:00

We need a change from all the doom and gloom I've been posting lately, eh? It's giveaway time!! I hit 100 followers, and I hit 500 posts a week or so ago! I want to thank you all for all the love, support, and encouragement you've shown me; I started this blog pretty much just as a journal--not expecting many to read it, but along the way I've made many new friends, met incredible people,

Back on an Anti-Depressant

2011-04-22T19:21:00.000-05:00

My psych called in an RX for Lexapro today. And of course insurance won't cover it without a prior authorization from my psych, but after a bit of deliberating I went ahead and filled it, and will be reimbursed later. So I was able to begin it today. I also assured the nurse that I still new how to utilize the ER in case I needed help over the weekend. I also got a refill of endo pain meds

Tying a Knot and Hanging On

2011-04-22T00:21:00.000-05:00

Via WeHeartIt.com I'm writing you from a dark pit. I'm not okay. I took yesterday and today and fell back, took time to observe everything that was going on in my mind and my body. I realized that I was slipping into a depression that I've been in a couple times. The first time, I went into an outpatient hospitalization program. The second time, I landed in the psych ward. I don't want to

Brief Check In

2011-04-21T00:23:00.000-05:00

Spent the day sleeping, watching documentaries and baseball, and curled up with Alex. Pain has been a bit more manageable today, thankfully. I'm taking a step back from most things (did want to give an update after last night's falling apart post), just taking care of myself and Alex right now, and seeing how that goes. Thank you all for the wonderful, caring comments. They do mean a lot, I

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